"I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well" Psalm 139:14
This verse had brought me so much comfort over the past 10 months. After Abby's brain surgery, the neurosurgeon, Dr. Boop, said that the tumor looked old and that it had been growing since birth and maybe even in utero. I realized then that she was "fearfully and wonderfully made." God made Abby "wonderfully", brain tumor and all. My mind asks "why" quite often but then I am reminded of this verse. There are so many verses on the Bible that remind us that God not only knows everything about us, even the number of hairs on our head (Matthew 10:30) but He created us, every one of us, perfectly. God did not make a mistake with Abby, or with any child. It has taken me a while to be at peace with this, but I think I am finally there. And once again, God's word helped me to understand that which my human mind could not.
Jason and I found out last week that we are expecting another child and this verse has taken on another depth of meaning. This tiny little life inside of me is being "wonderfully made" by God. Abby and I looked at pictures of babies from inside the womb as they grow and develop, and let me tell you, "marvelous are thy works". The book even admitted that so much of how a baby develops is a mystery. How do the cells know to create a lung, liver, spine, fingernail? Science may never be able to answer that question but "my sould knoweth right well." God designed a perfect system, and even though we may not understand every detail, He does. I am glad that God is in control of this tiny little life, just as He was with Abby and Lyla. And that even if this child is a boy or a girl, tall or short, blond headed or brown headed, etc., God designed this baby perfectly.
Jason and I are ecstatic that God has blessed us with another child and Abby is so excited that she is going to have a baby brother or sister. She is the biggest sister and Lyla is the big sister! I am only 6 weeks along so please pray for this newest addition to our family along with the rest of us.