Tuesday, September 8, 2009

How is Abby?

I get asked that question alot when I am out and about. I usually say "Wonderful!" which is true but I thought I would provide a more detailed answer here.

Abby IS doing wonderful. If you were to watch her play or talk you would never know what she had been through. The only "marks" are the two scars on her head, one of which you can't see unless you look for it. The other is more obvious b/c they shaved so much of her hair but I am sure that strangers think she got the scissors out and cut her own hair! I watch her play and sing and dance and feel that it is truly a miracle! The tumor is still there and will always be there but we feel so blessed that she is so normal right now and that there are no real side effects from the tumor or the surgery.

Usually what I leave unspoken is that her future remains unclear. All is great right now but we have no guarantee that it will stay that way. Chemo and radiation are more than likely in her future. The tumor is still very large and if it grows it could cause impairments. I know my God is bigger than all this and that if He says so it will never grow again-we are just not sure that is His plan for her.

Although God has blessed us abundantly, I still have days that I just don't understand all that has happened and when I have so many questions and not enough answers. I also worry about what the future holds for us. We truly do not know. I lay in bed and wonder if she will have to start chemo soon, if she will live a long life, and when and if the tumor does grow what side effects there will be. I trust that God will provide for us and will take care of her no matter what happens in the future-but the worry and fear is always there. When I feel overwhelmed by it (which happens often) I pray that God will help me through it and will replace that worry and fear with joy and thankfulness for this day, another day I have to hold her and talk to her and play with her. And you know what? God always comes through for me-the fear melts and the worry subsides. And I remember all He has done, that He is in control, and that He loves me and her. How lucky we are to have someone like that to go to in times of darkness!

Thank you all for your prayers and please continue to lift Abby's name up in prayer!

"Be still and know that I am God..." Psalm 46:10


  1. Morgan:

    Isn't it great to know that we have a God that can do anything? He still makes Doctors shake their head in amazement and say I don't understand. Just like with my Dad when he was in the hospital the other day. He had to get 6 units of blood, and the doctors could only say he's a walking miracle. Abby will continue to be in my prayers!

    Amanda Stevens

  2. I pray for Abby and your family often! Alyssa is always 1st to say pray for Abby when I ask for prayer requests at bedtime. I am so thankful that Abby is doing so well. I pray that her tumor doesn't grow and I will still pray for the miracle of it disappearing all together. Sometimes I wonder what my response would be if the doctors told me that Alyssa's tumor is just gone and they don't know why, and I pray that both of us get to experience that kind of relief and indescribable joy. Our God is a great God.
    Kellie Beggs

  3. What a great outlook you have! I think of you all EVERY day! I stay at home with my kiddos too so whenever you are feeling lonely or need a friend, I am here, just call me! 870-834-4076